Getting to that fork in the road
MONDAY, April 26 – Drank too much last night, didn’t get enough sleep, mind and body affected. Goofed up again. This morning I realized how easy it is to end up on the road to ruin. Tempting. You can get there in no time. But that’s not on my agenda. I’m searching for willpower: it’s the only thing on my agenda today. Just one small grain of willpower.
Diary of a Widower 
Been there, done that. I was saved by writing. Hope it helps save you.