No new love yet. Too soon
MONDAY, April 12 – Had a long talk with K. She was worried because of my uncommunicativeness, the vacuum I’ve created around myself, my mourning for Jennifer even though she understands my need to do so. The grief, the profound need to cherish her memory… neither enough time nor enough space for a new relationship. Not yet. It’s too soon. I feel like a bastard and an egotist, but I need to think about Jennifer, only Jennifer. So, I opt for my own needs and we stop seeing each other.
Diary of a Widower 