Wishing I’d been there
THURSDAY, September 23 – I just notified the hospital that I have decided to let the matter rest. I can’t afford to waste my precious energy on a long, drawn-out search for possibly culpable medical mistakes. The main reason is that it won’t change anything. Another chapter has been closed, but others are still lying ahead of us. The only thing that really gets to me is the uncertainty about what happened in the last moments of Jenn’s life. I wish I could at least have held her hand.
Diary of a Widower 